Archives for October 2006

I feel like there is not much interesting stuff happening right now, but at the same time I wish I could already post about all the stuff that is going to happen in the next few weeks, because I am worried I won’t have enough time to post about everything when the time comes. Strange.

I suppose you could say “I am getting ready to emigrate”. That sounds big. Well, it is – I guess. I avoid using the word “emigrate” when I talk about moving to the US. I know that technically “emigrating” is what I’ll be doing, but I still like to see LA as our “temporary” home. I don’t know, but I think very few people move to a different country with the intention to never return to their home country again. The thought of this would scare me.

My days are pretty busy right now [yeah, you wouldn’t think that days can be busy when you don’t have a job ;)]… I usually do some chores around the house in the morning. It makes me feel better about having lived with my parents for the last couple of months. I run some errands, work out, cook lunch and in the afternoon I usually tutor or see people. In between, I try to get my room ready for when I leave, sell stuff on ebay, sort through things and start piles for what I have to fit in my suitcase. I am so glad Jon took one suitcase filled to bursting when he flew back in September. Yet, I am afraid, I will still have a hard time fitting all my stuff into only two suitcases. I mean, come on… you should be at least be allowed to take an extra bag when you move somewhere permanently, don’t you think?
So yeah, I have to make compromises and I really have to work myself through the list that I started weeks ago… I am sure there is still so much missing on that list that I definitely need to get done before I go. Why isn’t there a check list for emigraters? Or is there? Then please would someone point me to the website? ;)

I am kind of freaking out about the changes that are going to happen. I am a little scared, I guess, but I know everything will be fine. Yes, it will be.
[Maybe, if I keep telling me this, I’ll eventually believe it.]
Well, I’ll be with J… and that will make up for all of it ;)

Today is J’s birthday and I so wish I could be there with him. J and I have been separated a few times during our relationship and I thought it’s not going to be a big deal to do it one more time, but it is. Especially on days like this. Also, getting married and then being forced to be separated for MONTHS (!) is cruel. I thought it’s just going to be like all the other times, but we really were betrayed of the first feelings newlyweds have when they start sharing their lives [and apartment] as a married couple. Sure, we will have that when I get there… but it will have been put off for 11 months!

The good news is, I have booked a flight. Unless the Consulate comes up with an absurd reason to not issue my GC, I will be in CA with J in exactly 5 weeks.
Wow, 5 weeks… this almost scares me now ;) Being in Germany again for almost a whole year, I have almost gotten used to it again. It feels like there is so much left to do for me, although I have been anticipating to finally have a date for such a long time. However, it’s going to be hard to leave my family and friends again. Now that Kim will finally be reunited with C, it would have been so nice to meet him. This is really bad timing, because they’ll be coming back here around the same time I’ll be going over there. It’s almost a funny coincidence that for both of us the LDR crap will be over at around the same time… but YAY for ending LDR’s! [And we’ll see each other in Long Beach next year, Kim!]