I am not on top of things all the time, even though it might seem that way (and I wish I was). Sometimes I just want to hide under a blanket and cry.
I am not someone who likes hanging around a big crowd, I am much better with people on a one-on-one basis. I am not into drama. I am not saying that hanging out with a bigger group can’t be fun, but mostly I prefer individual relationships with people.
I am not afraid of honesty. If I ask you something, I expect you to tell me the truth. You don’t need to sugar-coat things if they aren’t pretty. I’d much rather deal with the truth than wasting my time trying to figure out what the truth actually is. If you ask me something, I’ll tell you the truth as well.
Maybe that’s the straight-forward European in me, but if so, so be it.
I am not into horror movies, like at all. I really don’t see the point of watching them and I am kind of scared of the people who come up with the plots. I am not ashamed to say that I’d go to bed afterwards being terrified and afraid of nightmares.
I am not into being told what to do, or given unsolicited advice. If I want your opinion, I’ll ask you for it. Otherwise, keep your pie-holes shut about things that don’t even concern you.
I am not proud of the fact that I have disappointed people. It was never done intentionally, but sometimes no matter what you do, somebody gets hurt. I am not making excuses, but telling it like it is.
I am not good at making decisions. I especially dread the small, every day decisions that have to be made. What’s for dinner? What shirt am I going to wear today? Do I want my hair up or down? What movie do we want to watch? I’d rather have someone else make these decisions for me.
I am also not keen on making decisions when other people are involved. I am not implying that I don’t have an opinion, but I’d much rather do what my husband/friend wants to do and know that they’re happy with the decision than make the decision myself and having them tell me afterwards that this was not what they wanted to do. For me, it’s all about the company, so I don’t really care what we do as long as we do it together!
I am not going to agree to do something I don’t want to do, just because everybody else is doing it. I’m not concerned about what other people think of me. I am not afraid to stand up for myself and what I believe, even if that means that I am in the minority or that someone won’t like it or disagree with me. I have always been that way and I am not too humble to be proud of this. Although, I am a pretty humble person otherwise.
I am not feeling like a grown up, really. Most of the time I feel like I am just pretending. I am not sure why that is or when I’ll finally feel grown up. Just because I have grown-up responsibilities and handle them fairly well doesn’t mean I really know what I’m doing. I am not opposed to the notion that maybe, I am still a big kid at heart.