It’s been a little while since I checked in (about three weeks) and I thought it might be time for an update. Honestly, the days and weeks have started to blur together for me. The individual days seem to slip through my fingers. I’ve been hoping to get into a bit of a regular blogging routine, but I am still finding it a little difficult. I can’t believe we’re in week 9 of shelter-in-place.
I want to say, I am okay overall. I don’t have terrible anxiety or sleepless nights. In fact, I sleep pretty well most nights (maybe partly because I am still experiencing bouts of extreme tiredness every few days and fall asleep on the couch before bedtime). I exercise, I eat pretty well, and I try to practice self-care. I am wondering though if my body is holding on to some subconscious stress and tension.
If you asked me if I had found my groove working from home, I’d have to say ‘yes’ and ‘no’. While I do have a pretty good work routine set up now and actually enjoy working from home, I still don’t “feel” like this is normal. My co-workers have told me during a recent virtual Happy Hour that the first couple of weeks were hard for them, but that they’ve settled into a routine. I mean, yes, I have to, but emotionally this is harder now than it was in the beginning. I have these moments where the gravity of our situation just “hits me”.
It’s hard to explain, it’s like I knew before, but I didn’t know until just now.
Do you know what I mean?
I think, it partly has to do with the fact that I read and hear every day what is happening out in the world, the case and death numbers are facts and I treat them as such, but luckily, I haven’t been personally affected by the virus (yet). I don’t personally know anyone who has died from it, don’t even personally know anyone with a positive diagnosis, but that doesn’t mean that I am not affected by the news or that I am not taking the virus seriously (unlike some other people).
It’s funny, isn’t it, how this pandemic has brought out the best and worst in people.
As previously mentioned, I’ve been limiting my news consumption and have mostly stopped listening to the public briefings, although you can’t completely escape the commentary (on Twitter and elsewhere), and then there are days where Jon will find me desperately sob-laughing and laugh-sobbing at my desk because I once again couldn’t help but listen in on one of the White House press briefings and all I can think is, please dear God, just make it stop.
Ezra Klein said it all in his latest piece on VOX: We don’t have a president, or a plan.
“Over the past two months, the US should have built the testing, contact tracing, and quarantine infrastructure necessary to safely end lockdown and transition back to normalcy — as many of its peer countries did. Instead, Trump has substituted showmanship for action, playing the president on TV but refusing to do the actual job.”
Is this scary to you? It’s scary to me.
I know that our local government is doing a better job in handling this pandemic. We are currently in phase 2 of reopening here in California. I think different states have different phase protocols, so don’t assume our phase 2 is your phase 2.
What I could gather from our state response website, we’ll be in phase 2 for a while and expansion of reopening certain businesses will move gradually, and county by county, depending on certain criteria. Our shelter-in-place order here in Sac County has been extended until May, 22 (for now).
Dine-in restaurants can open under certain circumstances (which have only been met in two CA counties so far), but nail salons, gyms, bars and nightclubs, movie theaters, playgrounds, theme parks, festivals, sports and concert venues, and hotels remain closed statewide at this time.
As of last week, every adult here can get tested for free, regardless of any symptoms, through Project Baseline, who are setting up testing centers all over the country. I haven’t decided yet if we should get tested at this point, as we’re considered to be in the low risk group for infection as we’re working from – and mostly staying – home, but I sure like having the option now, and I know screening and testing availability are part of the reopening criteria (especially in more densely populated counties).
In Germany, they’ve started opening things up again. Masks are still mandatory in stores and when using public transport. Restaurants are going to open next week with limited seating. Gyms and hair salons are back open, and schools have opened with different grades showing up on different days (as far as I understood from my sister). Some people are back to work at their offices, who previously worked from home.
This is what I heard from family and friends and I am sure there are regional variations on how things are handled (as there are here). And apparently, things are continuing to be pretty fluid there as well, but I do hope that the reopening hasn’t happened too soon.
This is really my only concern here, because as much as I understand that people want to go back to “normal”, I don’t think normal still exists in the way we’d like to think about it and we have to be cautious and strategic in re-entering the outside world.
All this to say, we’re all in this together, however long it might last.
In the meantime, don’t forget to breathe.