I am doing NaBloPoMo this month. 30 blog posts in 30 days. Come join me. #nablopomo2022
It’s been great getting to know everybody better these last few weeks, especially the AMA (Ask Me Anything) posts have been so fun because I’ve learned so many random things about you guys that probably would have never just “come up” in a blog post.
We’re all painting pictures of ourselves on the Internet and I realize that this can be deceiving sometimes, as we pick and choose what we share. I wonder if I am in real life, as you imagine me from my online presence — and vice versa.
Life isn’t perfect and neither am I. I have lots of flaws just like everyone else – I can be sulky sometimes, I like things done my way, and I am a bit of a perfectionist. We’re all human!
But I thought it would be fun to paint a picture of who I am by sharing a list of things that I am not.
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I am not on top of things all the time, even though it might seem that way (and I wish I was).
I am not someone who holds grudges for very long. I might sulk for a little while, but I get over it pretty quickly.
I am not always patient, but most of the time I am. Sometimes though, I don’t want to wait for answers/decisions to be made/goals to be reached. Sometimes I want it all now.
I am not afraid of honesty. If I ask your opinion, I expect you to tell me the truth. I’d much rather deal with the truth than waste my time trying to figure out what the truth actually is. If you ask my opinion, I’ll tell you the truth as well.
I am not good at making decisions. I go along with a lot of things because I don’t want to be the person that pushes her decisions on others (but I do try to speak up if a decision is really important to me).
I am not always a healthy eater. I do cook most meals from scratch and I place value on fresh, unprocessed foods. I make a point to not have frozen dinners in the freezer or preprocessed meal items in the pantry, but sometimes? Sometimes I just need some ice cream.
I am not always positive, although I am very much a “glass-half-full” kinda person. But I also sit in a pool of negative thoughts sometimes.
I am not indifferent. I usually have an opinion, thought, or feeling about everything. I like to think that this is better than having no interest in anything at all.
I am not always good at taking care of myself. I don’t know how to say ‘no’. I usually always put other people’s needs first and when I don’t, I feel really selfish. I know that this is a hard lesson for me to learn.
I am not very good with rejection. I am a people pleaser and usually try to get along with everyone, and it hits me extra hard when I feel (undeserved) open hostility from someone.
I am not proud of the fact that I have disappointed people. It was never done intentionally, but sometimes no matter what you do, somebody gets hurt.
I am not feeling like a grown-up a lot of the time. Just because I have grown-up responsibilities and handle them fairly well, I still often feel like I am just winging it, waiting for the real adult to swoop in and take over.
I am not a mind reader, though I wish sometimes I possessed this ability.
What is one thing that you are not?