I am participating in the Scintilla Project, a fortnight of storytelling. There will be writing prompts every day for the next two weeks. You can follow along on Twitter @ScintillaHQ and by searching the #scintilla13 hashtag for other participants and their stories.
Prompt: Sometimes we wish we could hit the rewind button. Talk about an experience that you would do over if you could.
If I could hit the rewind button…
I would not sit there and let you unload on me as if I deserved it. I would stop you right there and tell you that you had no right to be upset with me.
I would not apologize for something that was not my fault, but ask you for a little bit of perspective.
I would not take the blame for a situation I wasn’t even involved in and instead, clearly point this out to you.
I would not let you trample my feelings and go on and on about how awful the situation was for you and how much you deserved an apology from me when I was the one who deserved the apology.
I would not tell you that I knew how you felt, because I honestly didn’t.
I would not try to be a friend to you, but tell you that I needed you to be my friend and you weren’t there for me.
I would not empathize with you feeling oh-so-bad, but ask you to consider my feelings just for once.
I would not tell you that our email exchange must have been a big misunderstanding, because I know you meant every word.
I would not wait for you to call, hoping that I was misinterpreting your silence, but pick up the phone myself.
I would not wait for you to quietly and slowly cut me out of your life, but tell you right then and there that I was the one that had no desire of being your friend anymore.
I would be more cautious about thinking that, after a year, our friendship was rock-solid, as it obviously hadn’t been tested yet.
I would not try to fix a relationship that apparently was lopsided to begin with, but consciously make the decision that I didn’t need ‘friends’ like you in my life.
I would, for once, stand up for myself, stop giving people the benefit of the doubt and not wait for others to decide the state of our relationship.