I might be a tiny bit insane signing up for yet another monthly challenge, but I kind of found my blogging mojo again last month and I want to keep it going. I am not going to promise 31 posts in December, but we’ll just see how much I can fit in.
Today’s prompt is: Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
If I had to sum up 2010 with one single word, it would be “you”. I think this year I have lived my life a tad too much for other people. This is not necessarily a bad thing, because I like other people and I like to help them and be there for them.
I am actually all about that. However, sometimes when everything is revolving around other people (and their joys and sorrows), I tend to forget to take care of myself.
I try to make people feel good, make an effort to connect and get disappointed. More often than not, I take on way more than is good for me and only realize much, much later that I can’t fix certain things and that I can’t take over other people’s problems. Stepping back would be a much better choice sometimes. But that is hard, because it makes me feel like I am abandoning you. What I need is to find balance.
For 2011, I’d like the word to be “me”. Not because I suddenly turned in a terribly selfish person and don’t care about other people and there feelings anymore, but I think I need to re-focus on myself a bit and try to figure out what it is that I want and need from other people. I need to make sure that my life is balanced and happy, because only then will I be able to spread this happiness to others. I need to make sure to cut people out of my life that keep sucking the life out of me (figuratively, heh.) I just need to stop caring so much and set my own boundaries.
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You & Me = balance.
This is my equation for transitioning to the new year.