A sad day

Last week Tuesday, President Obama gave his Farewell Address. Watching him approach the microphone in his confident, yet laid-back manner and listening to him for just under an hour talking about his presidency, his family and the state of our democracy made me feel warm, fuzzy and so appreciative of his leadership and subsequently, scared out of my mind for what’s to come.

I cannot believe this gentle, thoughtful, and classy (let alone, well-liked around the world, albeit imperfect) man will hand over the presidency to a loud, obnoxious, hormonal and childish billionaire who has served nobody but himself his whole life.

My heart aches to see the Obamas go.

I want to make one point very clear. I don’t simply dislike the president-elect for his policies (although, which are what exactly?) or mere difference of opinion, but for his lack of decency, maturity and grace as a human being. The way he conducts himself is so off-putting. I’ve seen nothing but pettiness, fear-mongering, self-praise, lies and contradictions come out of his mouth. Let alone the fact that he can’t string a coherent, sensible sentence together.

My Dad actually asked me during one of our recent phone calls if Trump doesn’t have anything more important to do than tweet about the most random things, because he seems to take everything so GODDAMN PERSONAL.

Do you know what would have happened if Obama had reacted to every insult or speculation about him the way Trump (who, by the way, was on the forefront of degrading and insulting Obama back in the days) does? Oh, let me enlighten you. Somebody wrote a (hilarious, if it wasn’t so serious) article about that.

In all honesty, Obama wouldn’t have had time to govern, he wouldn’t even have had time to wrangle with the representatives in Congress. He would have been busy lashing out at anybody who said anything critical about him (and there were many!), instead of dealing with real issues. Because hey, can’t let anybody say anything bad about you in this business.

Did Trump realize that this is basically what happens when you sign up to be president? You have to have a thick skin because there will always be an opposition.

But hey, let’s just pretend Trump is a superhuman who can do it all (and, naturally, in reverse order of importance); twitter inappropriate responses to things that should really just roll of his back as president (if he took his newly acquired position seriously AT ALL), continue to run his businesses (nooo, there won’t be any conflicts of interest ever) AND – on the side – run the United States of America. No big deal. [\sarcasm off]

The way he scoffs at everything relating to the government, while not having a clue how to govern. That he thinks he can run a country like a business. That he won’t sell his assessts and release his tax returns. The way he thinks he doesn’t need to be held accountable for what comes out of his mouth. I am stunned that there are no mechanisms in place to stop this, that we have relied on nothing but common decency of elected presidents to ‘do the right thing’.

I am not watching the inauguration today. I don’t think I can handle another blow like the one I felt on November, 9th and which cost me several days to recover from. I feel helpless, but I don’t want to give up hope.

Ugh. Today feels heavy. This can’t be happening, right? Who’s marching tomorrow?