It’s been exactly 7 months since I left Sacramento. I had a hard time leaving and I knew I would miss it. In the last few months, I’ve thought of Sacramento often. This is where I had my first “real” home with J. Although I loved living in Davis and J. and I shared our first own place with a roommate there, Sacramento is where I felt “home”. I’ve been thinking quite a bit about what it will be like when I finally return to the US to start my married life with J. Funnily enough, I always think about returning to Sacramento. You can call it nostalgia or stupidity… it is where I want to be right now. I’ve caught myself yesterday thinking about going shopping at Trader Joe’s, driving down Folsom Blvd. and stopping at the supermarket right around the corner from our [old] apartment. I thought about getting my coffee ready in the morning to go to work, walking up the stairs to my office and going out for lunch with my co-workers.
I thought about the little crÃƒÂªpe-place that J. and I liked to go to and about all the walking that we’ve done in the neighborhood. I miss Sacramento. I really do. It hurts to realize that I won’t go back there when I finally get on the plane.
I really am quite excited about moving to L.A though. I do believe it’s going to be a fantastic experience and I am sure that I’ll love it once I am settled in. I am looking forward to living in our beautiful apartment. I can’t wait to go shopping for accessories and then make it our home and start our life together.
But for right now, I feel nostalgic for Sacramento.
And I miss J.
I know, I don’t talk about it very often, but of course I do miss him. It’s just not fair that newlyweds have to be separated like this. Of our 8 months of marriage, we spent maybe 7 weeks together so far. This is just ridiculous. When you think about it, first and foremost we got married, so that we won’t have to be separated anymore. Well, of course we love each other and we knew that we wanted to be together and all that, but the reason to get married at this point in our relationship was clearly that we didn’t want to have a LDR again and that there was no other way for us to live together in the same country.
Well, it hasn’t exactly worked out yet. J. is going insane over there in L.A. and I don’t feel particularly better about being stuck here. The worst part of it is that it feels like our whole life is “on hold”. Sure, I absolutely enjoy the time that I get to spend with my family and friends, no doubt about that, but still … our life has to start moving forward eventually… soon!
I talked to Kim last night and as we were both whining about our LDR situations, we thought that whining together would really be so much better than each of us sitting at home alone…so we had this crazy idea that I could just hop on a train on Friday to go and see her. A problem shared is a problem halved ;) [and two problems shared are two problems quartered? *lol*]
So I looked up the train connections to Bremen last night and -what a surprise!- found an affordable connection… so I hit “Enter” and booked. Yeah, I did it :) Still having my Bahncard, plus getting the discount they have on certain connections, I really couldn’t pass up this incredible deal!
I think we’ll both have fun drowning in each other’s tears while watching all seasons of “Friends” and drinking nice big mugs of hot cafÃƒÂ© latte :)
Spontaneous decisions are the best. I should decide spontaneously more often :)