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Archives for April 2013
Last night, it suddenly hit me that I hadn’t used my Starbucks birthday reward yet. It was about to expire today. I usually don’t stop at Starbucks on a regular basis, definitely not during my work week. It’s a special treat that I allow myself when I am traveling or meeting up with friends. Although I like the idea, you won’t find me randomly by myself at a Starbucks somewhere. I like my couch at home way too much and besides, Starbucks is, if we’re honest, quite expensive. I can make make a good cup of coffee at home.
Since I didn’t want to let the birthday reward go unused, I decided to stop at Starbucks on my way to work. It didn’t really make sense, as we always make our own coffee at the office, but why would I ‘waste’ a $4-5 beverage when I can get it for free for my birthday?
I stopped at the small Starbucks which is only a couple of blocks from my apartment. When I got out of a car I saw a homeless person with a sign sitting on the sidewalk in front of the coffeeshop. This is not uncommon in Midtown. I run into homeless people frequently, sometimes have a short conversation with them; hardly ever do I give them money.
I went inside, ordered my grande vanilla latte and scanned my “Gold Card” on my Starbucks App to claim my reward. When I received the drink, I automatically wrapped my hands around the warm paper cup, as it was a bit chilly out this morning and my hands were cold.
As I left the coffeeshop, I had to pass the homeless person with the sign again. I glanced down to read what it said. “Female vet, struggling to get by.”
I don’t know if it was the fact that the person was female (I don’t run into female homeless people nearly as much) or the fact that she was a vet and looked tired and cold, but not disheveled, just in need. I didn’t even think twice and offered her my vanilla latte. Her eyes lit up when she looked up at me and she accepted the steaming hot beverage with a smile of gratitude and surprise and whispered a “Thank you and God bless you”.
I smiled back at her, then got in the car and she waved me goodbye when I drove off.
I know it was just a small gesture. I know it’s not making a big impact on the world or anything, but knowing that I made this lady’s morning by offering her a hot cup of coffee – which most of us take for granted – kinda made my day.
It’s the little things that we can do on a daily basis that do make a difference, if only in this one person’s life. Don’t let the chain of love end with you.
Today is my great-aunt’s birthday. She would have turned 91.
It’s hard to accept that I won’t be able talk to her today. In a way, since I’ve lived so far away form her for so many years already, she’s still over there somehow.
This morning, I remembered the pashmina scarf. It was a gift to her two Christmases ago and the only item I claimed back immediately when we cleared out her apartment.
It’s dark teal. My favorite color.
It has been sitting on my bedroom dresser ever since I returned back to California and for the first time this morning, I picked it up again, held it in my hands for a few seconds before I buried my face in it. The sensation was quite overwhelming, as her smell is still clinging to every fiber of this scarf. Funny how that works. It hit me like a fist punch to my nose, my eyes started to water and tears escaped the corners of my eyes, while simultaneously the soft scarf caressed my cheeks like her loving hands so often did.
I wonder if I can find a sealed box somewhere in which I can store the scarf, afraid that it will eventually, with time, lose the precious smell that is so dear to me and evokes such raw, but beautiful emotions now that she’s gone.
Why is grief so freakin’ hard?
Current Book(s): I just got “BossyPants” by Tina Fey for a bargain on my nook and can’t wait to start it.
Current Playlist: NPR. Ha! I don’t find much time to listen to music right now.
Current Shame-Inducing Guilty Pleasure: Kinder Chocolate.
Current Color: purple.
Current Drink: fresh, hot steaming cup of coffee.
Current Food: German Apple Pancakes.
Current Favorite Show: “All in” with Chris Hayes.
Current Wishlist: An iPhone 5. Or maybe, I’ll actually wait for the iPhone 6 which will, no doubt, be coming out in the not to distant future.
Current Needs: Some more discipline with my work-out routine!
Current Bane(s) of my Existence: Not enough sleep. I am so tired.
Current Celebrity Crush: Zac Efron (in ‘the Lucky One’). I KNOW. Don’t ask me how that happened, I have no idea.
Current Outfit: jeans, top, sneakers.
Current Excitement: Spring weather. It’s been so nice and lovely out – minus the crazy winds yesterday – and we’ve been enjoying some walks in the park.
Current Link: I was looking for a website/app that would help me track my spending and I found Buxfer. I really like it so far, because it will sync between web and app, you can batch fill in your expenses and it will let you look at different spending periods (not just ‘per month’), which works great, because I get paid twice a month on odd days.
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What’s up with you CURRENTLY?