Archives for December 2010
Moment. Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).
When I received this prompt in my mailbox this morning, I didn’t really know if I wanted to write a post. How could I pick one moment out of a whole year of 365 days? I am sure I had lots of moments, when I felt most alive. Good moments and bad moments.
I kept going over all the things that happened to me in this past year and was pretty sure that I would pick a moment with my husband or with my niece, with my sister or a good friend. There have been many moments that were absolutely special and that are dear to my heart. In the end, I decided to pick a moment when I was alone. Completely happy and content all by myself.
My mind kept wondering back to one specific day back in August when I spent 24 hours all by myself on the beautiful island of Oahu in Hawaii. I blogged all about it here. It was my first time in Hawaii and I definitely want to go back.
The whole day was an absolute blast, but the moment that I can’t forget and that I replay in my head over and over again was when I felt alive and adventurous and absolutely overwhelmed by the beauty of this earth. I was standing at the top of the Diamond Head Trail and was blown away by the breath-taking view of Waikiki Beach and the neighboring Hawaiian Islands.
My heart was pounding from the strenuous hike, my cheeks were hot and glowing, but the wind felt nice and cool on my skin. I was on top of the world, but at the same time felt insignificantly small. The beauty of the island was completely overwhelming and humbling at the same time.
I want to have more experiences like that. I want to travel more, see more. This world has so much to offer.
I might be a tiny bit insane signing up for yet another monthly challenge, but I kind of found my blogging mojo again last month and I want to keep it going. I am not going to promise 31 posts in December, but we’ll just see how much I can fit in.
Today’s prompt is: Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
If I had to sum up 2010 with one single word, it would be “you”. I think this year I have lived my life a tad too much for other people. This is not necessarily a bad thing, because I like other people and I like to help them and be there for them.
I am actually all about that. However, sometimes when everything is revolving around other people (and their joys and sorrows), I tend to forget to take care of myself.
I try to make people feel good, make an effort to connect and get disappointed. More often than not, I take on way more than is good for me and only realize much, much later that I can’t fix certain things and that I can’t take over other people’s problems. Stepping back would be a much better choice sometimes. But that is hard, because it makes me feel like I am abandoning you. What I need is to find balance.
For 2011, I’d like the word to be “me”. Not because I suddenly turned in a terribly selfish person and don’t care about other people and there feelings anymore, but I think I need to re-focus on myself a bit and try to figure out what it is that I want and need from other people. I need to make sure that my life is balanced and happy, because only then will I be able to spread this happiness to others. I need to make sure to cut people out of my life that keep sucking the life out of me (figuratively, heh.) I just need to stop caring so much and set my own boundaries.
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You & Me = balance.
This is my equation for transitioning to the new year.